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Torn from my chest my heart is still aching

My mortal soul, my essence, my life is here for the taking

Everything I've known is breaking

Like an over drawn seizure my body wont quit shaking

With light slowly fading darkness begins to surround me

There is no where to go no where else left for me to be

There's nothing left to do but fade out of this reality

Nothing left but my own demise that I wish to see

Losing grip on reality of my life I am letting go

Nothing left but blindness in a shadow that I now wish to know

This is no longer a time for words but of actions

Time to end this no more hesitations



Like a calm storm taking over a raging sea

Death now becomes my only necessity

Love has left me there is nothing here but an empty hole

Nothing left to burn out of this world but my own selfish soul



Pouring down my arms are cold beads of sweat

I am in too deep with no way out from this undying debt

Lost and confused unable to move I have lost all of my energy

My life has become nothing more than just another bad memory

Visions of death swirl my mind about

I open my mouth but the screams wont come out

Staring at the mirror gazing upon my own reflection

My body shivers in cold chills from my own soul's rejection

I am now nothing more than an emptied out hallow shell

I have no more lessons to learn and nothing more to tell

Just another worthless soul headed straight for hell

A worthless soul that I am unable to sell



Like a calm storm taking over a raging sea

Death no becomes my only necessity

Love has left me there is nothing here but an empty hole

Nothing left to burn out of this world but my own selfish soul



I reach for the bottle and blade as my heart starts to quicken its pace

Unable to go on I contemplate on taking my existence out of this place

I am ready and praying for my last dying breath

Yet I am not sure that my soul is worthy of death

I can no longer breathe laying out clutching my chest

I am unable to wake from this demonic rest

Starting to look at the world from behind a blank stare

I am awaiting my escape from this life's endless nightmare

Trying not to stay stuck in this same time and space

Looking back at the world one more time I find a new face

Out of the shadows came a figure with the scent of death on its soul

With its hand reached out to me I let this worthless life go



Like a calm storm taking over a raging sea

Death now becomes my only necessity

Love has left me there is nothing here but an empty hole

Nothing left to burn out of this world but my own selfish soul





Like a calm storm taking over a raging sea





Death now becomes my only necessity





Sono

Kage

Enzeru

Blackened from the filth of yesterday

In the filth again today I play

There is nothing any one can do or say to keep me away

For in the filth of this world is where I wish to stay

My skin will remain pale from lack of sunlight

For I live my life through the shadows of the night

Avoiding humanity for I can no longer stand their scent

So in the 8th street cemetery is where most of my time is spent

Through darkness I make my way to the river bed

Then relax and try to clear all these thoughts from my head

I'm trying to keep myself from going insane

With a constant pain in my brain

My eyes open wide as for a vein I aim

Then head home light a candle and get lost in the flame

Trapped in it's beauty I am drawn into the fire

Bathing in this feeling before from this night I retire

Deathly visions flash before my eyes

Then pass out in darkness after the candle flame dies

Time to take you back to my earliest memory

I was eight years old hanging from a tree

I remember wrapping the rope around my neck

My life even back then was a wreck

Jumped and awoke with every one staring down at me

Even back then I couldn't set this soul free

Rushed to the hospital I lay staring at the wall

That should have been my wake up call

Was put in a mental institute in order to work through my problems

Only they were never able to solve them

In and a couple more times over the next few years to come

They still had no clue where these feelings were coming from

To this day my pain was never mended

If only back then it would have all ended

I wouldn't be stuck in this pain

I wouldn't be fighting to remain sane

Why didn't my neck break

Then I wouldn't be stuck in this world of heart ache

Why is it that I couldn't disappear

Why am I still stuck here

Why couldn't I just have ran out of breath

Why was I denied my death

Living is hell to me

Why can't I be set free

Just let loose this mortal coil

Let my body return to the soil

What is it that keeps me stuck here in this place

Why must I keep living through this disgrace

Why am I denied my eternal rest in peace

Won't my existence just cease

I have tried to speed up my time of death up

Yet every time I have just woke back up

Is there some kind of test so that my death I can earn

Is there some lesson here that I must first learn

Is there really some big master plan

Something that I do not yet understand

Am I suppose to some how find happiness

For myself am I suppose to earn my forgiveness

Oh why oh why can I not be set free

For living in this world is nothing but hell to me

Slowly sifting through the sands of time



Living out life's sad song with no reason or rhyme



With flesh ripping my bones begin to grind



I am slowly losing grip on my mind



Drifting in and out of this so called reality



Losing my sense of morality



Falling from my own sense of sanity



No longer can I stay in this society



I will no longer put up with this thing called fate



No more will I hide all of this hate



No more will I fight this burning desire



Just let them all wash away in the flames of my fire



Watch as they run in fear as before their eyes their life flashes



Then I will arise from all of their ashes

Your beating still heart in my hand



I continue to spread my hatred through out the land



From shore to shore, ocean to ocean and the deserts of sand



The few survivors will for ever bare my brand



In this darkness I will walk alone for all of eternity



No peace of mind no serenity



Losing my grip on my sanity



I fade in and out of this reality



My eyes see straight through with an emotionless stare



For I am neither here nor there



As I stare at you through the reflection of my own soul's face



My mind travels through out all time and space



I will for ever be lost from the light



For I will remain shrouded through the darkness of night

Spinning higher and higher



I know I shouldn't be playing in your fire



You're my sweet succubus and I'm you eternal vampire



Through blood shed we will build our empire



We will walk side by side for all of eternity



You will always remain my goddess my beautiful deity



You are my only shot at serenity



You are my guide through all of this insanity



When we are in each others arms I am at peace



For you my love will never cease



With you in my life I can face my days with ease



For you are the cure to my disease



You were the only one to see through my disguise



You took me away from every thing that I despise



As you bite into me and drink deep I get lost in your eyes



You have brought me truths instead of lies



I am happily lost in your love and lust



For you will always remain my beautiful little succubus

Lucid dreams of taring through your flesh



Out of breath from the night's unrest



Memories of what I have done flash before my eyes



My mouth is still filled with the taste of their demise



The wilderness was my stage



The light of the moon filled my rage



I found the most perfect little angel and tore her to shreds



Her flesh became the unholiest of breads



Left her laying there dead



Then back into the night I fled



The ecstasy of her death still fills me



A beast of the moon I am set free



Of the ways of life for me there is no other



I am the beast blessed by mother



Into her blessed arms I was allowed



So I will continue to make her proud